I was dumbfounded. [I had] a sinking horrible despair, like your best friend dying. [I thought] "What the hell... huh, no, it�s a joke! You�re not joking? No it must be. This is gossip". So [there was] complete disbelief, [I was], ringing people up [and asking] "Is it true?" "Yes it�s true." "What!"

I was over here [in America] when it happened. In Australia I could have rallied around everyone, [but being here] I was very isolated. It was awful for me because it was like you�re in a beautiful marriage, and suddenly you get a phone call from a lawyer saying, "Sorry, you�re divorced, and your kids are being taken away from you, thanks, bye bye".

It was most profound for me because the reason I left Farscape was for nothing except [that] I was as sick as a dog and the make-up made me so damn ill. So my feeling was of horrible disbelief and despair.